Author: pjc0502

Today has been a wrestling match between my desire to be in the moment vs worrying about the future….with a bunch of mad thrown in. I am so angry at the turn of events at my work place and want to yell, scream, curse, cry, but at the same time don’t want to let my anger control my reactions. One minute I have been fretful about what my professional life really means and what the immediate future holds and the the next I’m reminding myself to just stay with the day and do the best that I can. See the next hour pass for what it is and then let it go. I cannot undo yesterday nor the disrespectful things said by our “leaders”, but I can remind myself today of who I am and what I can do. Before Haiku, I would have continued to stew in the worry. Now, I can be mindful, write a Haiku and be done with the work day and the discouragement it tried to force on me.

Can you let go of your day’s frustration?

This was my view driving home. As I reflected on my day…not yesterday or tomorrow, but today, because I am teaching myself to live in the moment, it occurred to me that this picture represented my day. It was a stormy, unsettling day. I hurried from one thing to another much as I was hurrying to get home ahead of the storm. It actually made me smile. Probably the first time I truly smiled since I left home this morning. I know that, for now, many of my days will be stormy. (There I go again, thinking about the future! How hard that behavior is to break!) The way I let them affect me is the thing. I choose to let today go and be here tonight, enjoying the present.

Can you let go of today?

I am a pessimist and a “worry-wart”. Maybe you are too. I have always, always worried about the past and the future. I will dwell on what I should have done, said, asked, or what is going to happen tomorrow, next week, next month. I have rarely – throughout my entire life, focused on the here and now. That is, until this past June. Our broad minded church allowed a class to be taught on Haiku. For the first time in forever, I am learning to “be” in the moment. What a feeling.

Do you live “in the moment”?