I had a strange thought today, ok so I have these a lot of days…but I actually said out loud that I am sure when I was younger, I knew I would be wiser and happier at this stage in my life. In my desire to be in the present, the past seems to creep in. Maybe it’s not totally possible to be in the present while not considering the past. And maybe that’s a good thing. I think the key is to not dwell or stay in the past.
Our past makes up so much of who we are, good and bad. And I keep thinking I will learn from my past, make better decisions, have better outcomes; become more “grown up”. But I don’t feel that way. I really don’t see much difference, except for in the mirror. I sure don’t feel any wiser…
When will I be “grown up”? And what does that mean? Does it even matter while I try to be mindful and in the present?
Do you feel grown up?